Chapter 15 - The Fourth Help from Destiny
Have you ever acted like an insecure jealous girlfriend when hindi ka naman girlfriend para umaarte ka ng ganun?
Well… ewan ko ba pero I think I’m acting like one right now! Hindi ko alam pero since last night I just can’t think anything else except the fact that they know each other. Ok nakakalito na siguro yung sinasabi ko.
Kanino ba ako nagseselos? Well no other than my girl best friend Patricia or Pat. You see kahapon my childhood friends visited me here sa bahay nila Kim to convince me na sumama sa Friendship Day namin, I know it sounds lame na may Friendship Day kami, I really don’t want to celebrate our friendship day because it just reminds me that wala na yung best friend kong si Louie and he’s never coming back.
So enough about missing Louie, the point of their visit yesterday was really about convincing me to go with them to Louie’s grave and there we’ll celebrate our friendship day that Louie started when we were young. But it so happen that they didn’t know that someone is actually courting me and I’m living in his house and so they decided they should meet the guy!
Lani, Louie’s twin sister reprimanded me about many things yesterday. Kasi since Louie died, I haven’t been in touch with them, it brings back memories. Kaya nga nagdecide din sila na pumunta na kasi nga gusto nila mag bond daw kami. And so we bonded.
Wala naman si Kim that day eh, hapon na siya umuwi nun galing practice. Pero when he arrived pinakilala ko isa isa sila Lani, Elle, Cass and of course Pat.
And nagulat nalang kaming lahat nung parang namukaan nila yung isa’t isa, nagulat pa nga si Kim that time and so did Pat, she blurted out “Aspen Guy” and that moment napatingin ako kay Lani because nanlaki yung mata niya, siniko siya ni Cass that time at nagkatinginan pa sila. Then si Elle nagtanong kung magkakilala silang dalawa and they said they met in Aspen during the Holidays.
And so nagusap pa silang dalawa that time habang kami naman nila Lani ay nagpunta sa may poolside kasi yung dalawa busy. Tumayo ako at naglakad papasok uli ng bahay nang marinig ko sila Lani. They were whispering pero rinig ko kasi ako pa.
Anyway they were saying “I can’t believe this siya yung Aspen Guy?”asked Cass
“Who would have thought within reach lang pala si Aspen Guy.” Said Elle.
“Small world.”Lani commented.
Anyway naguluhan pa ako that time, I was really thinking hard anong meron dun sa Aspen! What happened in Aspen! Umalis na sila and Pat seemed so happy and so did Kim.
Hindi ko na kinausap si Kim that night, sobrang gulo kasi nung mga naiisip ko, nagisip lang talaga ako and then it hit me.
Aspen Guy
Nakwento na siya sa akin dati ni Pat, I wasn’t really listening to her kasi all she do is brag about her trips across the Pacific and whatever. Pat is something. Home-schooled si Pat because her parents are always travelling and sinasama nila si Pat and that’s why ganun. She always travel.
So ayun nga nagkukwento si Pat that time, but I was really preoccupied with something nagaway kasi kami ni Louie that time, at talagang hindi niya ako pinapansin ganun din ako, alam ko naman kasing una siyang magso-sorry sa akin pero ilang days na wala paring sorry. So anyway ayun nga she’s talking about her spring break in Aspen. Her parents were doing business in Colorado and she decided to go to Aspen alone and ski! We were eating out kasi we’re waiting for our friends to come at kaya hindi ako nakikinig kasi nagiisip ako kung paano makikipagbati kay Louie.
But something caught my attention that was when she said that her Aspen getaway is the best time of her life because she met a guy, ayun nakinig na ako kasi Pat seemed happy about the guy well si Pat kasi she has many flings but she’s never serious and right now I can see she’s actually happy.
Buti nalang hawak ko palang yung mango shake ko that time kundi baka nabuga ko na sa kanya yun because she told me randomly that she’s not a virgin anymore! And that happened in Aspen! Nagalit ako sa kanya and pinagalitan ko siya ng todo, and she made me promise not to tell Louie, kasi si Louie he’s like yung overprotective sa aming girls kaya ayun I promised kahit ayokong nagtatago ng secret kay Louie.
But really she’s just what 16! Well can’t blame her really she grew up being liberated and all.
So that’s how I remembered Aspen Guy although I’m not very sure if that’s Kim she was talking about baka naman diba madami siyang nameet? Pero bakit parang iba yung mga sinasabi nila Lani kanina?
And I couldn't sleep that night so kaninang umaga, nag breakfast lang kami at tahimik lang ako, then I found out aalis si Tita at si Kim dahil pupunta sila sa Embassy so maiiwan si Sam at ako ang babysitter niya ngayon. Mag-order nalang daw ng lunch.
So after they left, pinapunta ko si Sam sa living room para manuod ng Clifford yung pulang malaking aso! And sinabi ko na pag dumating na sila Kim, she’d call me.
So here I am at Kim’s room, naghahanap ng ebidensya na hindi siya si Aspen Guy. Na hindi siya yung lalaking sinasabi ni Pat na alam niyo na.
Naghahalungkat lang ako talaga, ewan ko ba pero kasi eh, I saw Pat’s eyes yesterday and it was something that I don’t like about Pat. Those eyes told me that she wants something.
I may really act like an insecure girlfriend right now but Pat is really something, we always fight when we want the same thing, and when it comes to Pat, whatever she wants she gets.
Nagpunta ako sa desk niya, hinalungkat ko yun, I opened the drawers and naghanap ng clues and dun sa pinakababang drawer, I saw a box, yung box na parang gawa sa Papemelotri or whatsoever yung tawag dun sa stationary shop na yun. So anyway I took it out, I examined it at halatang gawa lang ni Kim kasi walang masyadong design at halatang lalaki ang nagdesign nung box and may label siyang calling cards.
So sinabog ko yun sa ibabaw ng desk ni Kim, para mas medaling hanapin diba? Then while rampaging through the cards, may nahagip yung mata ko, tinignan ko yun nakita ko na may brown side, nasa ilalim kasi kaya kinuha ko dun at tama nga ako.
Brown butterfly yung picture.
Naka-lagay lang dun sa harap is Club Butterfly, kinabahan pa ako kasi that’s the club I formed with Pat and the others. Mahilig kasi ako sa butterfly ganun din si Pat so ginawa naming Club Butterfly lahat kami nagpagawa ng calling cards na may logo ng club namin, that club is a tea club yung bang parang mga sosyal na babae nagkakape or tea at naguusap. We were the founders.
Unti unti kong tinalikod to see the name, I already know kung kanino tong card kasi matagal ng walang Club Butterfly, long before I met Kim and hindi ako nagbigay sa kanya ng card when we met.
Nung tinalikod ko na may parang post it, yung nilalagay na manipis sa book or notebook tas kita yung labas para maalala mo? Ganung post it siya may nakasulat na Great time in Aspen with this girl
I don’t know but nanghina ako that time. Hindi ko alam kung bakit ako nalulungkot nung nalaman ko na iisa sila ni Aspen Guy yung guy na kumuha sa V ni Pat.
The guy who took the virginity of my best friend is actually the guy who told me he loves me.
Inayos ko na yung calling cards na nagkalat knowing Kim, naka-alphabetical order yung mga yun so inisa-isa ko yun kahit pa nanghihina na talaga ako.
After that I went to my room and dun nalang ako humiga ako at nakatingin sa ceiling.
Ewan ko pero nakatulog na pala ako nagising nalang ako kasi kumakatok si Kim, ayaw ko siyang makita, hindi nalang ako sumagot pero narinig ko nagbukas yung pinto.
“Ever heard of privacy?” I said nakatalikod ako sa may pinto so hindi ko siya kita.
“What’s wrong?” tanong niya nakalapit na siya kasi nakaupo na siya sa gilid ng kama eh. “Why did you go to my room?”
Alam niya? Napatayo ako at tumingin sa kanya at sinamaan ko siya ng tingin “Are you really accusing me?”
“Then why is that my room is not organized?” he asked. He really have OCD!
“Bakit ako lang ba ang tao dito? Aba malay ko diyan sa kwarto mo. Baka tinamad kang mag linis kaya ngayon sinisisi mo sa akin.” sabi ko sabay higa at talikod.
I heard him chuckled “Hey it’s not alphabetical.” Napatingin ako sa kanya with What’s-not-alphabetical look. “It’s actually color coded. You see…” bigla niyang nilabas yung box ng calling cards. “This is beige.” Sabay pakita nung isang card “And this is ivory.”
Pinalo ko siya sa braso kasi naman eh tumawa na ulit siya “I’m no fool Mary so have you found what you’re looking for?”
Tumango ako “You could always ask me, you don’t have to go through my stuffs.” He said at medyo lumapit pa siya sa akin. “I know you’ve seen the note in Tricia’s card and I know you also know about what really happened in Aspen.”
Nakatingin lang ako sa kanya, so he won’t even deny what happened in Aspen. And what the hell Tricia? Really? Pat hates being called Tricia well she uses that to guys she flirts with.
“And yes I won’t deny it. It did happened and I didn’t know it was her first time, she told me she have done it before, I didn't want to take advantage of her but we were drunk and having a great time.” He explained “After that we hanged out during her stay in Colorado, I actually had a great time with her but Mary nothing’s going on between us.” he looked at me straight in the eyes “You’re the one that I love.”
Niyakap niya ako, you know the thing about being a jealous insecure girlfriend act is that in the end it’s just an act and nothing more. You just got insecure by the ideas popping in your head, you didn’t actually think about the facts.
“Eh bakit mukha kayong masaya kagabi?” I asked nung humiwalay ako sa yakap.
He smiled “We’re reminiscing.” With that pinalo ko siya ng unan, malakas yun ah kasi napa-aww siya. “Are you jealous?” nakangiti niyang tanong sa akin kaya pinalo ko ulit siya “You are.”
“Masama ba? Ako yung nililigawan mo tapos tapos makatawa ka kasama si Pat. You told me you love me tapos parang kagabi hindi mo man ako nakita nung napansin mo si Pat.” Pagrereklamo ko.
Yeah I sound jealous what can I say?
He’s the only one.
I don’t know what I feel about Kim but I don’t really want to lose him.
And my act was because I was afraid I would actually lose him. Natakot ako na baka ipagpalit niya ako kay Pat, natakot ako na baka hindi ko na namalayan hindi na niya ako mahal kasi nandiyan na si Pat. I was really scared that Pat would take him away from me. Ang classy pa naman nung boyfriend and best friend well in my case suitor and the best friend.
“Don’t be jealous, I don’t have feelings for her because my heart is full of you. There’s no space left here.” Sabay turo sa puso niya. At yakap sa akin.
Just wait Kim. Wait for my heart to be full of you too.
Well… ewan ko ba pero I think I’m acting like one right now! Hindi ko alam pero since last night I just can’t think anything else except the fact that they know each other. Ok nakakalito na siguro yung sinasabi ko.
Kanino ba ako nagseselos? Well no other than my girl best friend Patricia or Pat. You see kahapon my childhood friends visited me here sa bahay nila Kim to convince me na sumama sa Friendship Day namin, I know it sounds lame na may Friendship Day kami, I really don’t want to celebrate our friendship day because it just reminds me that wala na yung best friend kong si Louie and he’s never coming back.
So enough about missing Louie, the point of their visit yesterday was really about convincing me to go with them to Louie’s grave and there we’ll celebrate our friendship day that Louie started when we were young. But it so happen that they didn’t know that someone is actually courting me and I’m living in his house and so they decided they should meet the guy!
Lani, Louie’s twin sister reprimanded me about many things yesterday. Kasi since Louie died, I haven’t been in touch with them, it brings back memories. Kaya nga nagdecide din sila na pumunta na kasi nga gusto nila mag bond daw kami. And so we bonded.
Wala naman si Kim that day eh, hapon na siya umuwi nun galing practice. Pero when he arrived pinakilala ko isa isa sila Lani, Elle, Cass and of course Pat.
And nagulat nalang kaming lahat nung parang namukaan nila yung isa’t isa, nagulat pa nga si Kim that time and so did Pat, she blurted out “Aspen Guy” and that moment napatingin ako kay Lani because nanlaki yung mata niya, siniko siya ni Cass that time at nagkatinginan pa sila. Then si Elle nagtanong kung magkakilala silang dalawa and they said they met in Aspen during the Holidays.
And so nagusap pa silang dalawa that time habang kami naman nila Lani ay nagpunta sa may poolside kasi yung dalawa busy. Tumayo ako at naglakad papasok uli ng bahay nang marinig ko sila Lani. They were whispering pero rinig ko kasi ako pa.
Anyway they were saying “I can’t believe this siya yung Aspen Guy?”asked Cass
“Who would have thought within reach lang pala si Aspen Guy.” Said Elle.
“Small world.”Lani commented.
Anyway naguluhan pa ako that time, I was really thinking hard anong meron dun sa Aspen! What happened in Aspen! Umalis na sila and Pat seemed so happy and so did Kim.
Hindi ko na kinausap si Kim that night, sobrang gulo kasi nung mga naiisip ko, nagisip lang talaga ako and then it hit me.
Aspen Guy
Nakwento na siya sa akin dati ni Pat, I wasn’t really listening to her kasi all she do is brag about her trips across the Pacific and whatever. Pat is something. Home-schooled si Pat because her parents are always travelling and sinasama nila si Pat and that’s why ganun. She always travel.
So ayun nga nagkukwento si Pat that time, but I was really preoccupied with something nagaway kasi kami ni Louie that time, at talagang hindi niya ako pinapansin ganun din ako, alam ko naman kasing una siyang magso-sorry sa akin pero ilang days na wala paring sorry. So anyway ayun nga she’s talking about her spring break in Aspen. Her parents were doing business in Colorado and she decided to go to Aspen alone and ski! We were eating out kasi we’re waiting for our friends to come at kaya hindi ako nakikinig kasi nagiisip ako kung paano makikipagbati kay Louie.
But something caught my attention that was when she said that her Aspen getaway is the best time of her life because she met a guy, ayun nakinig na ako kasi Pat seemed happy about the guy well si Pat kasi she has many flings but she’s never serious and right now I can see she’s actually happy.
Buti nalang hawak ko palang yung mango shake ko that time kundi baka nabuga ko na sa kanya yun because she told me randomly that she’s not a virgin anymore! And that happened in Aspen! Nagalit ako sa kanya and pinagalitan ko siya ng todo, and she made me promise not to tell Louie, kasi si Louie he’s like yung overprotective sa aming girls kaya ayun I promised kahit ayokong nagtatago ng secret kay Louie.
But really she’s just what 16! Well can’t blame her really she grew up being liberated and all.
So that’s how I remembered Aspen Guy although I’m not very sure if that’s Kim she was talking about baka naman diba madami siyang nameet? Pero bakit parang iba yung mga sinasabi nila Lani kanina?
And I couldn't sleep that night so kaninang umaga, nag breakfast lang kami at tahimik lang ako, then I found out aalis si Tita at si Kim dahil pupunta sila sa Embassy so maiiwan si Sam at ako ang babysitter niya ngayon. Mag-order nalang daw ng lunch.
So after they left, pinapunta ko si Sam sa living room para manuod ng Clifford yung pulang malaking aso! And sinabi ko na pag dumating na sila Kim, she’d call me.
So here I am at Kim’s room, naghahanap ng ebidensya na hindi siya si Aspen Guy. Na hindi siya yung lalaking sinasabi ni Pat na alam niyo na.
Naghahalungkat lang ako talaga, ewan ko ba pero kasi eh, I saw Pat’s eyes yesterday and it was something that I don’t like about Pat. Those eyes told me that she wants something.
I may really act like an insecure girlfriend right now but Pat is really something, we always fight when we want the same thing, and when it comes to Pat, whatever she wants she gets.
Nagpunta ako sa desk niya, hinalungkat ko yun, I opened the drawers and naghanap ng clues and dun sa pinakababang drawer, I saw a box, yung box na parang gawa sa Papemelotri or whatsoever yung tawag dun sa stationary shop na yun. So anyway I took it out, I examined it at halatang gawa lang ni Kim kasi walang masyadong design at halatang lalaki ang nagdesign nung box and may label siyang calling cards.
So sinabog ko yun sa ibabaw ng desk ni Kim, para mas medaling hanapin diba? Then while rampaging through the cards, may nahagip yung mata ko, tinignan ko yun nakita ko na may brown side, nasa ilalim kasi kaya kinuha ko dun at tama nga ako.
Brown butterfly yung picture.
Naka-lagay lang dun sa harap is Club Butterfly, kinabahan pa ako kasi that’s the club I formed with Pat and the others. Mahilig kasi ako sa butterfly ganun din si Pat so ginawa naming Club Butterfly lahat kami nagpagawa ng calling cards na may logo ng club namin, that club is a tea club yung bang parang mga sosyal na babae nagkakape or tea at naguusap. We were the founders.
Unti unti kong tinalikod to see the name, I already know kung kanino tong card kasi matagal ng walang Club Butterfly, long before I met Kim and hindi ako nagbigay sa kanya ng card when we met.
Nung tinalikod ko na may parang post it, yung nilalagay na manipis sa book or notebook tas kita yung labas para maalala mo? Ganung post it siya may nakasulat na Great time in Aspen with this girl
I don’t know but nanghina ako that time. Hindi ko alam kung bakit ako nalulungkot nung nalaman ko na iisa sila ni Aspen Guy yung guy na kumuha sa V ni Pat.
The guy who took the virginity of my best friend is actually the guy who told me he loves me.
Inayos ko na yung calling cards na nagkalat knowing Kim, naka-alphabetical order yung mga yun so inisa-isa ko yun kahit pa nanghihina na talaga ako.
After that I went to my room and dun nalang ako humiga ako at nakatingin sa ceiling.
Ewan ko pero nakatulog na pala ako nagising nalang ako kasi kumakatok si Kim, ayaw ko siyang makita, hindi nalang ako sumagot pero narinig ko nagbukas yung pinto.
“Ever heard of privacy?” I said nakatalikod ako sa may pinto so hindi ko siya kita.
“What’s wrong?” tanong niya nakalapit na siya kasi nakaupo na siya sa gilid ng kama eh. “Why did you go to my room?”
Alam niya? Napatayo ako at tumingin sa kanya at sinamaan ko siya ng tingin “Are you really accusing me?”
“Then why is that my room is not organized?” he asked. He really have OCD!
“Bakit ako lang ba ang tao dito? Aba malay ko diyan sa kwarto mo. Baka tinamad kang mag linis kaya ngayon sinisisi mo sa akin.” sabi ko sabay higa at talikod.
I heard him chuckled “Hey it’s not alphabetical.” Napatingin ako sa kanya with What’s-not-alphabetical look. “It’s actually color coded. You see…” bigla niyang nilabas yung box ng calling cards. “This is beige.” Sabay pakita nung isang card “And this is ivory.”
Pinalo ko siya sa braso kasi naman eh tumawa na ulit siya “I’m no fool Mary so have you found what you’re looking for?”
Tumango ako “You could always ask me, you don’t have to go through my stuffs.” He said at medyo lumapit pa siya sa akin. “I know you’ve seen the note in Tricia’s card and I know you also know about what really happened in Aspen.”
Nakatingin lang ako sa kanya, so he won’t even deny what happened in Aspen. And what the hell Tricia? Really? Pat hates being called Tricia well she uses that to guys she flirts with.
“And yes I won’t deny it. It did happened and I didn’t know it was her first time, she told me she have done it before, I didn't want to take advantage of her but we were drunk and having a great time.” He explained “After that we hanged out during her stay in Colorado, I actually had a great time with her but Mary nothing’s going on between us.” he looked at me straight in the eyes “You’re the one that I love.”
Niyakap niya ako, you know the thing about being a jealous insecure girlfriend act is that in the end it’s just an act and nothing more. You just got insecure by the ideas popping in your head, you didn’t actually think about the facts.
“Eh bakit mukha kayong masaya kagabi?” I asked nung humiwalay ako sa yakap.
He smiled “We’re reminiscing.” With that pinalo ko siya ng unan, malakas yun ah kasi napa-aww siya. “Are you jealous?” nakangiti niyang tanong sa akin kaya pinalo ko ulit siya “You are.”
“Masama ba? Ako yung nililigawan mo tapos tapos makatawa ka kasama si Pat. You told me you love me tapos parang kagabi hindi mo man ako nakita nung napansin mo si Pat.” Pagrereklamo ko.
Yeah I sound jealous what can I say?
He’s the only one.
I don’t know what I feel about Kim but I don’t really want to lose him.
And my act was because I was afraid I would actually lose him. Natakot ako na baka ipagpalit niya ako kay Pat, natakot ako na baka hindi ko na namalayan hindi na niya ako mahal kasi nandiyan na si Pat. I was really scared that Pat would take him away from me. Ang classy pa naman nung boyfriend and best friend well in my case suitor and the best friend.
“Don’t be jealous, I don’t have feelings for her because my heart is full of you. There’s no space left here.” Sabay turo sa puso niya. At yakap sa akin.
Just wait Kim. Wait for my heart to be full of you too.
posted by uknowulovemary on September 13,2012.
Chapter 16 - The Kiss in the Rain
Time does fly. Parang kalian lang my parents decided na kayla Kim ako titira, ngayon eto ako paalis na sa bahay nila. Although wala pa sila papa, babalik na ako sa amin, nagrereklamo na kasi ang mga pinsan ko, panay si Kim nalang daw ang kasama ko ngayong summer kaya uuwi na ako. Dun kami titira sa isang bahay ni papa dahil nirerenovate yung bahay. Masaya kasi no adults again kaso hindi ako in charge sa pera namin, si Karl kasi yung nabunot. Ok naman na si Karl yung maghawak ng pera I mean, hindi na namin kailangan magluto kasi lagi nalang kaming kakain sa labas at kung ano ano pa.
Anyway hahatid na ako ni Kim sa bahay after the wedding. Wedding day kasi nung hindi ko kakilala na naging bridesmaid ako dahil nga natalo ako ni Kim sa tennis. Anyway ginanap yung kasal sa Intramuros, San Agustin Church, tama ba ako? Basta yung isang simbahan dun sa Intramuros. Ang aga nga nung kasal kasi 7 am nandun na kami at nagstart ng 8. Then diretso reception na.
Kumain lang kami ni Kim tas umalis na din, diretso Cavite pa kami kasi, walang dalang sasakyan si Kim kasi yung driver nila yung nag drive kasi may hangover pa kanina si Kim, naginuman kasi sila kagabi. Pinagalitan ko pa nga sila ni Karl kasi alas tres na hindi pa sila tapos, nakauwi na yung iba pero sila hindi pa. They were talking about something serious that time hindi ko lang alam kung ano. Narinig ko lang na sabi ni Karl ay “Won’t you tell her?” ayun lang hindi ko man magets.
Habang nasa Coastal kami, umulan ng malakas, summer na summer pero umuulan; Summer rain. Tinignan ko si Kim at natutulog na siya, pagod din naman kasi yan, nakasandal siya sa balikat ko I don’t know pero hindi ako nagagalit kahit nakasandal siya, para bang sanay na ako sa kanya. Siguro dahil na din naging magkasama kami sa iisang bahay, wala na nga sa akin kahit topless siya ngayon eh.
Nagising si Kim nung malapit na kami, nagunat ng kunti tas tumingin sa labas “It’s raining.”
“Obvious ba?” I joked
“Haven’t played in the rain for so long.” He said at sumandal na ulit sa akin at pumikit. Hay pero ou nga noh ang tagal ko na din palang hindi naliligo sa ulan.
Muntik ng malagpasan nung driver yung sub namin, kasi dati kasi nahatid na niya ako kaso dun sa kabila, kaya I instructed the way papunta sa bahay. Nung nasa tapat na kami ginising ko na si Kim.
Nagpaalam na ako kaso pumasok pa siya, wala pang tao. Kaya pinauna na ni Kim yung driver at sabi papahatid nalang mamaya kay Karl para daw may kasama ako. Dahil maliit lang naman tong bahay na to at wala akong sariling kwarto dito, nasa living room lang kami. This house was bought dahil may balikbayan na associate dati si papa na kasama yung pamilya niya eh yung bahay naman ni papa may extra rooms kaso sympre nga pamilya sila eh wala naman pool house yung bahay kasi wala pa naman kaming swimming pool nun, kaya bumili nalang sila ng bahay para sa bisita at para daw may extrang bahay.
Anyway malakas parin yung ulan si Kim, feel at home at nakahiga sa couch. Eh ang boring boring kaya ako ay nakaisip ng paraan. “Kim ligo tayo sa ulan.” Suggest ko.
Napadilat siya ng mata at tumingin sa akin at tumayo na siya “Let’s go.” Pagaaya niya.
Tumingin naman ako sa kanya at sa akin. Kasi naman nakaformal pa kami, naka-tux pa siya at ako naman naka-cocktail tas maliligo kami agad “Palit muna tayo. May damit dito si Karl kaya palit ka muna.”
“No need. Don’t you want to try running around in the rain while you’re wearing a dress?” he smiled mischievously. I never had done that kasi pambahay ang pangligo namin sa ulan.
Hindi na niya ako hinintay na maka sagot dahil hinatak na niya ako palabas ng bahay. Hindi pala namin kanina nasari yung gate. Pero anyway nandun lang kami sa kalsada wala naman kasing dumadaan dito minsan. Ang lakas lakas ng ulan kaya basang basa kaagad kami.
We were running like fools but it feels good. When I’m with Kim, I’m really myself, yung bang kahit anong gawin namin it’s not boring for me. And right now I am seeing another Kim.
Nagbabasaan lang kami ng tubig ulan ni Kim, ang lalakas ng tawa namin, ewan ko ba pero ang saya saya ko talaga kasi nandiyan si Kim sa tabi ko.
Naglaro lang kami ng habulan and then he caught me. His hands were on my waist and we were both gasping for air, of course, we were running like forever at nakakapagod din yun. He looked at my eyes and he stopped smiling, his face was serious now. I don’t know but I looked at him too, dati sa ibang tao, I feel awkward when I’m looking into their eyes but right now I don’t feel awkward na para bang sanay na ako.
Lani once told me that Kim’s arrival into my life was a great timing, because I just lost Louie and Kim came and made me happy once again. Hindi ko alam pero they said that bumalik yung sigla ko nung nakilala ko si Kim, which I don’t really gets kasi kalian ba ako nawalan ng sigla? But they said it was different.
Kim brought back the smile that was lost when Louie left.
I’m happy that I have met Kim in my life.
Nawala yung pagiisip ko when I felt something touch my lips, Kim kissed me. Hindi siya gumagalaw, our lips is just touching each others’ lips while Kim’s eyes were closed. Ako naman nakadilat. Gulat sympre. Ewan ko pero iba yung naramdaman ko. Ou hindi ko ito first kiss, dahil ang first kiss ko ay si Karl na dapat talaga si Louie.
Then suddenly Kim’s lips moved. He was now kissing me and napapikit na ako, hindi ko siya tinulak kaya siguro he thought it was ok for him to kiss me. But it was different.
I responded to him, I don’t really know how to kiss I mean, my first kiss was my cousin at peck lang yun but now it’s different. I imitated what he was doing.
Hinila niya pa ako palapit sa kanya and our kiss deepen. It was a slow passionate kiss. And it feels so good. It feels like it was meant to be like that, that it was meant for Kim to kiss me. To kiss me under the pouring rain.
And that’s when I realized we were kissing in the rain.
I don't know why am I allowing him to kiss me but it felt right, maybe because of the moment, nagpapaulan kami and all, maybe because of that or maybe it’s because I feel something for him?
I know I’m not yet in love with Kim, I know my heart but do I feel for him?
He pulled away and he rested his forehead into mine, his eyes were closed. “Thank you for allowing me to kiss you.” I felt that my cheeks turned red. “I love you Mary.” He said as he opened his eyes and looked at me straight into the eyes “I know I am not in your heart yet but I won’t give up, I will keep on waiting for you no matter what, this I promise you.” he said.
And I smiled at him as I realized what he is right now for me. A best friend. “You’re already in my heart, pero hindi ko sinasabi na mahal na kita, but you already have a space.”
After playing in the rain, naligo na din kami at nagpalit. Nauna akong maligo kaya nahiga ako sa couch dahil siguro napagod ako, at nung nahiga na ako I touched my lips, why does it feels so right?
Kim’s always is always here for me. So maybe that’s why.
I may not love Kim right now but I do care for him. I don’t want him hurt. He said he’ll keep waiting I just hope he won’t get tired while I’m still figuring out on how much space my heart can give him without forgetting Louie.
Hindi ko alam na nakatulog pala, medyo nagising nalang ako kasi naramdaman kong may tumabi sa akin, minulat ko yung mata ko at nakita ko si Kim, tumabi siya sa akin at nakapikit na siya, malaki naman kasi yung couch pero nakaside view lang siya, kaya pinalo ko siya “Mahihirapan ka pag nakaganyan ka.” I said at umupo at napadilat siya tas inayos niya yung sarili niya, sa pagayos niya wala naman akong pwesto ako yung magsisideview magrereklamo sana ako kaso hinatak na niya ako sa katawan niya, I mean kalahati niya dun ako nakahiga parang unan ko yung dibdib niya at nakayakap lang siya sa akin.
Ang bilis ng tibok ng puso ko. At ganun din yung sa kanya. Sympre ramdam ko yun. “Let’s stay like this.” He said kaya pumikit nalang ako.
*
“Hey lovebirds gising.” I heard someone said.
Dumilat ako at nakita ko sila Karl, nakabilog dun sa couch, at nakangiti ng nakakaloko. Napaupo naman ako at pinalo ko si Kim kaya nagising siya.
“Kayo na ba?” biglang tanong ni Yannie.
Natawa naman si Kim pero hindi niya sinagot hindi ko din naman sinagot kasi hindi pa naman diba? But we did kiss?
Ewan bahala na. Wag nalang lagyan ng label ganun din naman yun eh.
“Nagluluto sila Ate Ina , darating sila Pat dito.” Sabi nama ni Karl, tumingin siya sa akin kasi nakwento ko sa kanya yung nalaman ko, sabi niya alam niya yung about dun sa Aspen pero hindi niya alam na si Pat yun. “Kim dito ka na magdinner.” Sabi pa niya
Aish. Darating si Pat eh.
Ou na nagseselos parin ako.
Umalis silang lahat at naiwan kami ni Kim. “Uwi na.” sabi ko.
“Why?” he asked
“May bisita kami kaya layas.” Pagpapalayas ko sakanya, tinutulak-tulak ko pa nga siya para mahulog sa couch kaso hindi man natinag.
“Don’t worry if you don’t want me to talk to her, I won’t. I’ll stay by your side. I won’t speak a word, just let me stay please?” sabi niya
“Bakit gusto mong magstay? Siguro gusto mo siyang makita no?”
He chuckled “I want to stay because of you. I won’t be able to see you more often now.” he said at bigla niya akong niyakap “Don’t get too jealous, I told you already you’re my one and only.” Sabi niya “Selosa.” I heard him chuckled when he said those word. Selosa? Kaya tinulak ko siya ng malakas at nahulog siya at sa paghulog niya nahatak niya ako at sabay kaming nahulog.
Nagtawanan lang kaming dalawa, not minding our position sanay na naman akong ganito, lagi kaya kaming nag-wrewrestling ni Kim sa bahay nila. At naghaharutan kaya ok lang.
But what made me stood up and blushed all the way was when nagsi-ayyiie ang mga tao, and to my surprise nandito na sila Lani.
“And sweet niyo talaga.” Comment ni Pat pero alam niyo yung parang nangaasar lang ganun yung feel ko sa comment niya.
Nginitan ko lang siya at tumayo na din si Kim “You’re here already. Come in.” siniko ko naman siya kala ko ba hindi siya magsasalita. Tinignan niya ako at nagsmile and he lean towards me and whispered something “I love you.”
I guess I’m being jealous again.
Oh well can’t help myself lalo’t na I don't want to lose him.
Anyway hahatid na ako ni Kim sa bahay after the wedding. Wedding day kasi nung hindi ko kakilala na naging bridesmaid ako dahil nga natalo ako ni Kim sa tennis. Anyway ginanap yung kasal sa Intramuros, San Agustin Church, tama ba ako? Basta yung isang simbahan dun sa Intramuros. Ang aga nga nung kasal kasi 7 am nandun na kami at nagstart ng 8. Then diretso reception na.
Kumain lang kami ni Kim tas umalis na din, diretso Cavite pa kami kasi, walang dalang sasakyan si Kim kasi yung driver nila yung nag drive kasi may hangover pa kanina si Kim, naginuman kasi sila kagabi. Pinagalitan ko pa nga sila ni Karl kasi alas tres na hindi pa sila tapos, nakauwi na yung iba pero sila hindi pa. They were talking about something serious that time hindi ko lang alam kung ano. Narinig ko lang na sabi ni Karl ay “Won’t you tell her?” ayun lang hindi ko man magets.
Habang nasa Coastal kami, umulan ng malakas, summer na summer pero umuulan; Summer rain. Tinignan ko si Kim at natutulog na siya, pagod din naman kasi yan, nakasandal siya sa balikat ko I don’t know pero hindi ako nagagalit kahit nakasandal siya, para bang sanay na ako sa kanya. Siguro dahil na din naging magkasama kami sa iisang bahay, wala na nga sa akin kahit topless siya ngayon eh.
Nagising si Kim nung malapit na kami, nagunat ng kunti tas tumingin sa labas “It’s raining.”
“Obvious ba?” I joked
“Haven’t played in the rain for so long.” He said at sumandal na ulit sa akin at pumikit. Hay pero ou nga noh ang tagal ko na din palang hindi naliligo sa ulan.
Muntik ng malagpasan nung driver yung sub namin, kasi dati kasi nahatid na niya ako kaso dun sa kabila, kaya I instructed the way papunta sa bahay. Nung nasa tapat na kami ginising ko na si Kim.
Nagpaalam na ako kaso pumasok pa siya, wala pang tao. Kaya pinauna na ni Kim yung driver at sabi papahatid nalang mamaya kay Karl para daw may kasama ako. Dahil maliit lang naman tong bahay na to at wala akong sariling kwarto dito, nasa living room lang kami. This house was bought dahil may balikbayan na associate dati si papa na kasama yung pamilya niya eh yung bahay naman ni papa may extra rooms kaso sympre nga pamilya sila eh wala naman pool house yung bahay kasi wala pa naman kaming swimming pool nun, kaya bumili nalang sila ng bahay para sa bisita at para daw may extrang bahay.
Anyway malakas parin yung ulan si Kim, feel at home at nakahiga sa couch. Eh ang boring boring kaya ako ay nakaisip ng paraan. “Kim ligo tayo sa ulan.” Suggest ko.
Napadilat siya ng mata at tumingin sa akin at tumayo na siya “Let’s go.” Pagaaya niya.
Tumingin naman ako sa kanya at sa akin. Kasi naman nakaformal pa kami, naka-tux pa siya at ako naman naka-cocktail tas maliligo kami agad “Palit muna tayo. May damit dito si Karl kaya palit ka muna.”
“No need. Don’t you want to try running around in the rain while you’re wearing a dress?” he smiled mischievously. I never had done that kasi pambahay ang pangligo namin sa ulan.
Hindi na niya ako hinintay na maka sagot dahil hinatak na niya ako palabas ng bahay. Hindi pala namin kanina nasari yung gate. Pero anyway nandun lang kami sa kalsada wala naman kasing dumadaan dito minsan. Ang lakas lakas ng ulan kaya basang basa kaagad kami.
We were running like fools but it feels good. When I’m with Kim, I’m really myself, yung bang kahit anong gawin namin it’s not boring for me. And right now I am seeing another Kim.
Nagbabasaan lang kami ng tubig ulan ni Kim, ang lalakas ng tawa namin, ewan ko ba pero ang saya saya ko talaga kasi nandiyan si Kim sa tabi ko.
Naglaro lang kami ng habulan and then he caught me. His hands were on my waist and we were both gasping for air, of course, we were running like forever at nakakapagod din yun. He looked at my eyes and he stopped smiling, his face was serious now. I don’t know but I looked at him too, dati sa ibang tao, I feel awkward when I’m looking into their eyes but right now I don’t feel awkward na para bang sanay na ako.
Lani once told me that Kim’s arrival into my life was a great timing, because I just lost Louie and Kim came and made me happy once again. Hindi ko alam pero they said that bumalik yung sigla ko nung nakilala ko si Kim, which I don’t really gets kasi kalian ba ako nawalan ng sigla? But they said it was different.
Kim brought back the smile that was lost when Louie left.
I’m happy that I have met Kim in my life.
Nawala yung pagiisip ko when I felt something touch my lips, Kim kissed me. Hindi siya gumagalaw, our lips is just touching each others’ lips while Kim’s eyes were closed. Ako naman nakadilat. Gulat sympre. Ewan ko pero iba yung naramdaman ko. Ou hindi ko ito first kiss, dahil ang first kiss ko ay si Karl na dapat talaga si Louie.
Then suddenly Kim’s lips moved. He was now kissing me and napapikit na ako, hindi ko siya tinulak kaya siguro he thought it was ok for him to kiss me. But it was different.
I responded to him, I don’t really know how to kiss I mean, my first kiss was my cousin at peck lang yun but now it’s different. I imitated what he was doing.
Hinila niya pa ako palapit sa kanya and our kiss deepen. It was a slow passionate kiss. And it feels so good. It feels like it was meant to be like that, that it was meant for Kim to kiss me. To kiss me under the pouring rain.
And that’s when I realized we were kissing in the rain.
I don't know why am I allowing him to kiss me but it felt right, maybe because of the moment, nagpapaulan kami and all, maybe because of that or maybe it’s because I feel something for him?
I know I’m not yet in love with Kim, I know my heart but do I feel for him?
He pulled away and he rested his forehead into mine, his eyes were closed. “Thank you for allowing me to kiss you.” I felt that my cheeks turned red. “I love you Mary.” He said as he opened his eyes and looked at me straight into the eyes “I know I am not in your heart yet but I won’t give up, I will keep on waiting for you no matter what, this I promise you.” he said.
And I smiled at him as I realized what he is right now for me. A best friend. “You’re already in my heart, pero hindi ko sinasabi na mahal na kita, but you already have a space.”
After playing in the rain, naligo na din kami at nagpalit. Nauna akong maligo kaya nahiga ako sa couch dahil siguro napagod ako, at nung nahiga na ako I touched my lips, why does it feels so right?
Kim’s always is always here for me. So maybe that’s why.
I may not love Kim right now but I do care for him. I don’t want him hurt. He said he’ll keep waiting I just hope he won’t get tired while I’m still figuring out on how much space my heart can give him without forgetting Louie.
Hindi ko alam na nakatulog pala, medyo nagising nalang ako kasi naramdaman kong may tumabi sa akin, minulat ko yung mata ko at nakita ko si Kim, tumabi siya sa akin at nakapikit na siya, malaki naman kasi yung couch pero nakaside view lang siya, kaya pinalo ko siya “Mahihirapan ka pag nakaganyan ka.” I said at umupo at napadilat siya tas inayos niya yung sarili niya, sa pagayos niya wala naman akong pwesto ako yung magsisideview magrereklamo sana ako kaso hinatak na niya ako sa katawan niya, I mean kalahati niya dun ako nakahiga parang unan ko yung dibdib niya at nakayakap lang siya sa akin.
Ang bilis ng tibok ng puso ko. At ganun din yung sa kanya. Sympre ramdam ko yun. “Let’s stay like this.” He said kaya pumikit nalang ako.
*
“Hey lovebirds gising.” I heard someone said.
Dumilat ako at nakita ko sila Karl, nakabilog dun sa couch, at nakangiti ng nakakaloko. Napaupo naman ako at pinalo ko si Kim kaya nagising siya.
“Kayo na ba?” biglang tanong ni Yannie.
Natawa naman si Kim pero hindi niya sinagot hindi ko din naman sinagot kasi hindi pa naman diba? But we did kiss?
Ewan bahala na. Wag nalang lagyan ng label ganun din naman yun eh.
“Nagluluto sila Ate Ina , darating sila Pat dito.” Sabi nama ni Karl, tumingin siya sa akin kasi nakwento ko sa kanya yung nalaman ko, sabi niya alam niya yung about dun sa Aspen pero hindi niya alam na si Pat yun. “Kim dito ka na magdinner.” Sabi pa niya
Aish. Darating si Pat eh.
Ou na nagseselos parin ako.
Umalis silang lahat at naiwan kami ni Kim. “Uwi na.” sabi ko.
“Why?” he asked
“May bisita kami kaya layas.” Pagpapalayas ko sakanya, tinutulak-tulak ko pa nga siya para mahulog sa couch kaso hindi man natinag.
“Don’t worry if you don’t want me to talk to her, I won’t. I’ll stay by your side. I won’t speak a word, just let me stay please?” sabi niya
“Bakit gusto mong magstay? Siguro gusto mo siyang makita no?”
He chuckled “I want to stay because of you. I won’t be able to see you more often now.” he said at bigla niya akong niyakap “Don’t get too jealous, I told you already you’re my one and only.” Sabi niya “Selosa.” I heard him chuckled when he said those word. Selosa? Kaya tinulak ko siya ng malakas at nahulog siya at sa paghulog niya nahatak niya ako at sabay kaming nahulog.
Nagtawanan lang kaming dalawa, not minding our position sanay na naman akong ganito, lagi kaya kaming nag-wrewrestling ni Kim sa bahay nila. At naghaharutan kaya ok lang.
But what made me stood up and blushed all the way was when nagsi-ayyiie ang mga tao, and to my surprise nandito na sila Lani.
“And sweet niyo talaga.” Comment ni Pat pero alam niyo yung parang nangaasar lang ganun yung feel ko sa comment niya.
Nginitan ko lang siya at tumayo na din si Kim “You’re here already. Come in.” siniko ko naman siya kala ko ba hindi siya magsasalita. Tinignan niya ako at nagsmile and he lean towards me and whispered something “I love you.”
I guess I’m being jealous again.
Oh well can’t help myself lalo’t na I don't want to lose him.
posted by uknowulovemary on 09.19.12
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